It's so fucking hot
Too humid to cry
Southeastern jungle sleeps beyond the nervous AC hum
Inside a dying creature writhes in silence, waiting for rebirth
I sit up, clutching my blankets to my face
Eyelids holding back the night, chorus of silent voices staring patient judgement like daggers on my neck
Can't find my earbuds can't shut this out
Vision swimming in deep parabola scanning tissue-strewn floor
Fuck it
Maybe the bullet won't be so bad
I can see with your eyes, I see too much
I see the blackness seeping in from behind the veil
The vile secrets below the earth best left unaware tbh
We carry the burden of knowing
Abandon all hope, ye who see
Numbed enough I might not feel a thing
Shrapnel teeth pink bubblegum memory
What chance do we have anyways
Ending each year a new person but
We all drive like Bowie in Berlin
Fundamental flaws
We should all be put down
- chelsea r. 6/21